Two weeks ago, my weekend was full of bacon. This weekend it was full of heraldry. One was tastier, the other was more instructive.
My primary activity in the SCA is heraldry, particularly what we call administrative or book heraldry. Since last August I’ve been the kingdom officer in charge of the registration process for names and armory, which is both awesome and daunting. I’m actually rather new to these things, but I picked a lot of stuff up quickly and I didn’t run away fast enough when my predecessor realized she was rapidly approaching burnout. As I have said about my musical abilities: I have talent but not a lot of repertoire. Particularly because of my office, I feel like I’m expected to know more than I currently do about all aspects of heraldry. So this weekend, at our biggest single event dedicated to classes, I was all heraldry, all the time. I learned about heraldic tabards and flags. I taught a class on conflict checking for armory. I ran our monthly decision meeting.
Meanwhile, Gwen was off taking a five or six classes that I would have loved to have been in, including one on tablet weaving and another on sausage making. There was a double-handful of knights teaching various armored combat techniques on the pell. I have been wanted to get authorized as a rapier marshal, and there was a class that is required for that being offered. And every time I walked across the open field in the middle of the site, I saw people practicing unarmored combat, a form that I’ve been wanting to explore — to the extent that I have the equipment for it, sitting unused under my bed.
Gwen and I joke often that we want to “Do All The Things!” or “Make All The Things!” or “Learn All The Things!” This weekend was a reminder that I can’t; or at the very least, I can’t all at once. I need to slow down, pick the most important things to do right now, focus on them, and not feel bad about the things I’m not doing. Most importantly, I can’t let feeling bad about the things I’m not doing prevent me from enjoying the things I am doing. I need to be patient with myself and grateful for the opportunities I am able to take advantage of. As my friend Ryan said, “Opportunities do not stop coming as long as you keep moving forward.”